yes, i must.

word by word. sentence by sentence.

painstakingly building an argument, a scene, a story.

writing is a process.

beautifully captured here (1 / 2).

.....

i find solace in writing. but it can be frustrating.

i polish, fret, doubt. repeat.

deadlines force you to let go.

but sometimes, it feels right. exquisitely so.

You are looking outside, and that is what you should most avoid right now... There is only one thing you should do. Go into yourself. Find out the reason that commands you to write; see whether it has spread its roots into the very depths of your heart; confess to yourself whether you would have to die if you were forbidden to write. This most of all: ask yourself in the most silent hour of your night: must I write?

- Letters to a Young Poet by Rainer Maria Rilke -